Thursday, December 13, 2007

Finite


This world has an end
the seasons are finite
the sky is a black void
beyond the cold blue veil
of a comforting illusion

Last night, my aunt died. I miss her already, the world is going to be strange without her; she was the true leader of my family, and everyone acknowledged that. I am so very numb, I can't even cry and I want to let the rivers flow, at least so I don't feel so inhuman. The only comforting thought is that she is not suffering with hideous, wilting pain any more. The next world is now a much better place for her arrival there.

But I have to thank you all for your wonderful messages of love, respect or just plain good will, in both comments and the many sweet emails that a lot of you have sent to me.

Above: The Helix Nebula. This is quiet obviously an explosion, a nova that has created a planetary nebula from the remains of a star that was about the same size as our own sun, about six hundred light years away. A small white dwarf star is in the center, but its light is drown out by the glare of the final stages of its former life.

Below: There's that blue fading to black.


Take care and talk to you later if I get the chance.

Peace and love.

26 comments:

Maithri said...

Dear Eric,

My brother I'm so sorry to hear of your aunt's passing.

I think it was tagore who said "Death is not extinguishing the light, it is just putting out the lamp, because the dawn has come."

She will live on in the hearts of all who loved her.

God bless you and your family at this time my friend.

Be kind to yourself and allow yourself to grieve in your own time and your own way.

Sending you love and peace brother,

Maithri

singleton said...

I'm sorry (((Eric))),

Sending peace and love to you. May her spirit now be free of the pain and darkness these mortal days have burdened her with, and may you, too, find some comfort in those wings...
She's loved you greatly....and you her....And that will only grow...

peace~love my friend,for you, Kristen,your circle....

Jessica said...

Sorry for your loss, Eric.

benjibopper said...

so sorry, my friend. as the finns say, "I take a small piece of your pain with me." be strong and remember her well.

ivan said...

Take it easy on yourself now.
This is a difficult thing.
Let some responsibilities and commitments go for a while.
Look after yourself.

Princess Pointful said...

Oh, Eric.
I knew the second I read your poem. There is so much pain and a sense of meaninglessness in there.
I am so very sorry. I hope you are able to take some time to just be with those who knew and loved her like you, and to get your head away from the pain of the past month, to remember and honour the beautiful aspects of her life.
Much love to you and your loved ones.

Crashdummie said...

Oh Eric i dont know what to say to ease your pain, my friend…so I’ll just send you a hug. Heaven has just gotten another angel…

Crushed by Ingsoc said...

THAT is a truly amazing image- Truly the Eye of God...

'soulless' said...

My most sincere condolences to you and your family, dear.

Sandy Kessler said...

now soon you must fly throughout the world- sending the same kind of messages she would, embrace as she did , emulate her life just a little- in the meantime we hold your heart with ours sk ibeati

Josie said...

Omigosh, Eric, I'm so sorry. I wish I could say something to make you feel better. What an awful time you're going through!

Take care of yourself, my friend. We're all here whenever you want to talk to us.

Lisa said...

I'm so sorry, Eric. Hang in there, and take care. Sending you many virtual hugs. I'll be keeping you and your family in my thoughts.

Gillian @ Indigo Blue said...

Dearest friend;

I am so very sorry about your lovely Aunt. This totally sucks. I had a doomy gloomy feeling today. I knew the world had shifted somewhat. My deepest sympathies to your family too.

This brings me comfort whenever death comes to greet...
I don't know who wrote it...but it is lovely. If you copy it and google it when you are feeling better, maybe you can find out who did. In the meantime I'll try to find out in order to give credit to the writer...

I stand upon the ocean shore.
As a ship at my side opens her sail
to the morning breeze and begins to glide
across the water blue.

She is a beautiful sight.
I stand and watch her as she glides
with grace and strength into the clouds
on the horizon.

Just where the sky and the ocean meet
and come to mingle with one another.
When I hear someone cry out,
"She is gone." and I must turn and say to them,
"Yes, but gone only from sight."

For within the mind and heart she can always
be found.
For life is eternal,
Love is immortal,
and death is only a horizon,
and a horizon is nothing save the limits of our sight.

I am a ship who has slipped beyond the horizon
just out of sight, but not out of mind or heart.
For my sails have now become wings and now I can soar.


I love this for obvious reasons. Eric, you will see her again when your ship is gone from the horizon too...

xo
Gillian

Behind Blue Eyes said...

I'm sorry about your Aunt. She set a good example for you, so you can live your life in the spirit that she did and she will live on in you. She made the world a better place for you and she can still make it a better place through you. You can still talk to her too you know. Sorry. I hope that wasn't creepy, it's just what I believe.

RubyShooZ said...

Your comment on my blog was the only one that I have been able to come and get my stuff together long enough to come here and respond to and now this...

I am sorry about your Aunt Eric and at the same time I am glad that she in not going through what she was. It hurts so much to know that our loved ones are in so much pain.

Know this:

As long as you live you will carry her in your heart with you. Remember her, talk about her when you can, feel it.

The feelings will never go away but they will change and we can get through it.

Thank you for being such a loving, caring wonderful person. Your sensitivity touches me in ways that I really have needed and I appreciate it very much.

Peace, love and understanding.

~ RS ~

iamnasra said...

I was thinking I have to see your blog and coming to read the news of the passing of your beloed Aunt is heartbreaking ...May the Lord give your the stregnth to overcome your grief..know that the death beloved one does not mean their falme is blown on contrary its there inside us... glowing at everysingle moment we recalling their goodness and touch of love that had lighted our life ...Hang in there

morbidneko said...

dear eric

she is in a better place - smiling down, with you always.

now is the time to rejoice, she is better now. happy and at peace.

be strong for her.

the walking man said...

Eric, as long as you remember you will never be without her. She sleeps peacefully with her ancestors now, a place of no darkness or pain of any kind.

Remember her well.

Peace

mark

Cazzie!!! said...

Eric, I think your words wouldhave fallen on wonderful listening ears, if you spoke to her in such a way as you write your poetry, from the heart, I am sure she would have felt so blessed and connected to you ..she IS still with you in spirit :)

Brian said...

((((((Eric)))))

Grief and numbness is being human.

Rose Dewy Knickers said...

Eric, although we've only recently met, yours is a kind soul and someone I admire. Your words of poetry and wonder I am sure have helped many, now it is time for you to receive all those blessings back. Mourn and remember, it is what we humans do.

Rose

xo

eric1313 said...

Everyone

I thank you all for your wonderful words. I will be gone for a few days, but you may be certain that I will answer your emails and visit you as I always do.

My thanks and my love to you all.

distracted spunk said...

How do you feel about a crying party? I think there are several of us who would be more than happy to attend.

Bemused said...

I'm so sorry for your loss Eric. My thoughts are with you...

Ant said...

I'm so sorry eric.

Obviously this is just words but time will help.

My thoughts are with you.

Anonymous said...

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